For My Stupid Mental Health

Yes, I have a TikTok for this as well, although I don't know how much I'll be sharing on there for content to be honest. I feel I do better when I'm able to just plain word vomit my emotions and feelings and let's be fair, TikTok does not promote videos very well if you use longer format and just sort of word vomit. I get it, I don't go on TikTok to see people rant about personal lives either honestly, I use it to escape those struggles.

I know I have already made a blog entry for this week but consider this the first official one since it's after I've actually gone for the practice of the week. So what happened this week? Nothing really, no big leaps anyways but just the continuing of trying to make progress. I think the biggest thing to work on for me right now is going to be my breath hold time as getting that longer will allow me to be able to practice tricks and stuff a lot easier.

Every Wednesday myself and a friend go to practice together, her at general swimming and myself at being a mermaid. This week we used her goggles to get me some diving and retrieval practice as well it sort of gave me something to focus on which helped with the initial "I need to breathe" panic. Cause like, no, I know I can hold my breath longer, you're fine, chill out.

It's annoying but holding your breath is basically all in your head, your body is fine, it has lots of oxygen to use still, you don't need a breath right away again. So I've gotta work past that, just an extra second or two at a time.

I should take the time I guess to tell people, know your limits. Do not push past them. The goal isn't to hold your breath until you feel like you're going to pass out or anything, the goal is to know how long before you start to get uncomfortable and then just try to hold it for a few seconds longer than that. It doesn't need to be a lot, don't get upset at yourself if it's only one second longer before you decide nope, going for air. Everyone's progress is going to look different and progress is progress regardless of how fast or easily it comes.

So there's a lot I need to work on still and do but I think doing more than one thing at time is going to thin out the progress and make it slower. I'm hoping to focus on one thing at a time... sort of. I go more than once a week but I think while I have someone there with me, it's a good time to practice holding my breath a bit longer, after all safety first even if you know your limits and think you're sticking within them. Then when I go on my own I think it'll be good to practice just technique, getting exercise and getting used to the feeling of things like water up the nose or in the eyes. Just a bit at time.

Maybe I'll update later the progress on those things too, for now cause we did breath holding I'm getting more confident at being able to reach a consistent 15 seconds under water. I know it's not a lot but it's definitely progress from when I first started out.

One step at time for sure and while I try to figure out how to close off these blog posts neatly I'll leave you with an uplifting message from my Mermaid Oracle cards.

"We all have someone in our lives that we can look to as a role model - somebody who can guide us in times of trouble or uncertainty. Now is just such a time and it is in your best interest to turn to this person, or to follow his/her example. Their wisdom, good sense and strong moral compass are precisely what you need to get your own life back on your preferred path."

You heard the mermaids, seek advice and wisdom from those you admire and look up to this week. Happy swimming everyone!